The Fire

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Well looks like 2011 is gone and 2012 is right around the corner, this year has been full of blessings,tears,joy,friendships,laughter and way more then what I expected. What im looking forward to the upcoming year is for God to really just reignite a new fire and new passion in my heart for what I enjoy doing the most and that is sharing my life and my all for students, just recently I was listening to this song by JJ Heller and in the song she says the fire doesn't leave anything that isn't of worth. Wow may the God of the universe set our lives on fire and remove all that isn't of worth and spark a new excitement on our lives and that all that we do we may do it with every fiber of our being! Also this past Sunday pastor spoke on pride and humility I as a person wouldn't say i'm the most humble person out there but one thing I strive for and killing the pride in my life because honestly its one thing I cant stand about people, and I wish there was more people out there that would just lay down their own personal interest for others. Nothing brings me more joy then making someone else smile or make some else really feel like they belong to something. So for now I guess ill set this year on fire and just pull out those things that have made me stronger wiser and a better person and take those things with me into 2012 and Hopefully they will be useful tools for a great year!

His Hands

My Life in His hands. Recently it really has dawned on me how much God has done in my life just in this year alone! 2011 has been a year of Blessings, Friendships,Opportunities and Growth! I guess ill start with my first mission which was start up Young Life at Millennium High school....Well first WOW did God open the doors at Millennium not only do we have club on campus, we also have TWO school sponsors and Lunch table where we play music and hang out twice a week! We also have passes to get into sporting events for free and we have been averaging about 60-80 kids every week talk about God showing up! The first semester flew by and I couldn't feel more encouraged about the spring semester! Then God threw a curve ball at me early September when He pulled me out of my job at Macayos and put me into a full ministry position at Skyway Church can I get a AMEN! God has given me my Dream job at the age of 21! I couldn't be anymore blessed! this mission is requiring everything God has taught me in the last 4 year and trust me He is calling me to use it all! and the best part yet is that this time next year they want me to be the Senior Youth Pastor at Skyway church! I cant even put into words how grateful I am for all that He is doing and im ready for the journey ahead for the sacrificing and surrendering that's to come! Please pray for the ministry that God is doing in the west valley and of course Pray for the students that are more broken than ever before.

Holiday Pain

Yup..... Unforgettably its the holiday season and there's nothing I can do about it. The horrible Repeating Christmas music. The decorations and wait did I mention the horrible music... You can Call me a Grinch but I have my Reason to hate the Holidays. It is the Holidays when ive gone through the hardest times in my life and it seems as though it never fails to disappoint. As though the world is on the mission to make sure the holidays are anything but Festive. But each year I do what I cant to make the best out of it. This year hasnt been quite back yet... but we shall see. Lately in my life things have just been different a Good different and its hard to explain but all I can say is that God presence has been thick in my life and ive been enjoying every minute of it. I know that what ever God has in store for me for 2012 is beyond what ever I could possibly plan for my own life, but I know that it will be a year of tears,laughter, and of course sleepless nights. Id write more but currently my body just want to rest and well God did say Rest. So to make it up to you i will leave you with some leadership advise. As a Leader walk in Grace with your Kids, Be a father and a brother at the same time and know that as long as you Love them for who they are God presence will pour out of you like a Stream of living water. Night Love you all! 

Life Ministry

There's something about Ministry that just stirs my heart like no other thing on this planet. God his instilled in me such a passion to help Teens that when I go a week without doing ministry I go mad! We live in such a world that pain is almost the norm and kids are actually starting to accept the hurt in their lives as if just a part of life. Today I hung out with an 8th Grader name Luke as I sat with him in McDonald's he became really transparent with me which was surprising. He has 2 sisters one older and a baby sister, His parents are divorced and you can tell they aren't well off. His older sister dropped out of school to babysit. He smokes cigs and steals on occasion and his dad drug test him on occasions because he use to smoke pot....at the age of 13. This truly breaks my heart and already not even knowing the kid I already want whats best for him, I want him to grow into somebody that will change his whole family, and only knowing the kid for an hour and i would already do anything to make sure his life takes a 360 turn by the Grace of God. If you read this please pray for Luke that God will grab a hold of his heart at a young age and that He will grow into a man that will bring the presence of God anywhere he goes. I still don't know why God picked me some one who was pretty well off in life to deal with kids that deal with such hard issues but all I do know is that He has put in a love for the broken in my heart and I will serve those He sends my way and that with God all things are possible. 

Establishing

So as some of you may know, I recently got hired on as a assistant youth pastor at a church, and well God has really jacked up my life! (in a good way) and things have been well dramatically different. Recently our Teen center (above) has some remodeling done to it $20,000 of remodeling to be exact and the place is barely recognizable to what it use to be. I have a point I promise. Well this morning during our corporate prayer meeting Pastor Sam kept saying that God is trying to Reestablish something and that immediately Sparked something in my heart, That God was about to rock the very foundation and DNA of the church and was going to start something New but as well as spark up a fire within me that I've felt has been almost put out. Pastor Sam also mention that now that the Teen center has new carpet, New paint, New stage and well he also mention me, A new Youth director, That he was going to Reestablish His will for the Youth in the area with New Things. I am still completely not sure exactly what He has planned but I know its big and its coming quick. This morning we walked over every inch of the Youth Center and Prayed over every single thing God Has planned to do in it, And I felt as God spoke to my heart and said Wait until you see what I'm gonna do next. I feel as though He is about to really commission me for this Job and I already feel His outstretched hands tugging at my life saying who will I use? And like Isaiah 6:7 my heart is SCREAMING HERE I AM LORD SEND ME!

The Last Two.

Relationships. sigh... yes Relationships. We are surrounded by them, We invest in them, sometimes... we let them consumes us. But whats a good relationship? I think if we truly take the time to invest in someone like God invest in us then all our "ships" would be well pretty smooth sailing. But whats a God like relationship like you may ask? well when its no longer about you but about the other person. But just like my Pictures above, It does take two to make it work. Both partners have to be equally surrendered to the other. when we engrave this thought into our hearts,( How can I serve you? ) Things will change! Rapidly. Recently I had to make a tough choice to Continue pursing a girl that I believed I should be at the time in this constant war of Flesh and Spirit. My human aspect wanted to be with this other person in this flesh desire to have a partner in life but, In my spirit I felt as I wasn't created to have one as this passage resonated in my head 1 Corinthians 7:7 But I wish everyone were single, just as I am. Yet each person has a special gift from God, of one kind or another.  These are things I've been struggling with for years but God has finally made it clear that as of this point in my life He wishes for me to remain single for his purposes and plans to be fulfilled in my life. It will truly be a sacrifice to obey this command on my life but I know that His desires for my life are more than what I could ever hope for. As I finish these two rolls I've realized that the second roll isn't a wife but a Father for life.

In between.

I don't know exactly how,what, who,or where this Blog will go or what it will turn into but ive decided that expressing myself,my thoughts, my worries, and my journey is something that I've always enjoyed  doing. Expression is a big part of my innermost person, and its something I often suppresses, but my extroverted self is bursting at the seams and i think its had enough rest.