Life Ministry

There's something about Ministry that just stirs my heart like no other thing on this planet. God his instilled in me such a passion to help Teens that when I go a week without doing ministry I go mad! We live in such a world that pain is almost the norm and kids are actually starting to accept the hurt in their lives as if just a part of life. Today I hung out with an 8th Grader name Luke as I sat with him in McDonald's he became really transparent with me which was surprising. He has 2 sisters one older and a baby sister, His parents are divorced and you can tell they aren't well off. His older sister dropped out of school to babysit. He smokes cigs and steals on occasion and his dad drug test him on occasions because he use to smoke pot....at the age of 13. This truly breaks my heart and already not even knowing the kid I already want whats best for him, I want him to grow into somebody that will change his whole family, and only knowing the kid for an hour and i would already do anything to make sure his life takes a 360 turn by the Grace of God. If you read this please pray for Luke that God will grab a hold of his heart at a young age and that He will grow into a man that will bring the presence of God anywhere he goes. I still don't know why God picked me some one who was pretty well off in life to deal with kids that deal with such hard issues but all I do know is that He has put in a love for the broken in my heart and I will serve those He sends my way and that with God all things are possible. 

Establishing

So as some of you may know, I recently got hired on as a assistant youth pastor at a church, and well God has really jacked up my life! (in a good way) and things have been well dramatically different. Recently our Teen center (above) has some remodeling done to it $20,000 of remodeling to be exact and the place is barely recognizable to what it use to be. I have a point I promise. Well this morning during our corporate prayer meeting Pastor Sam kept saying that God is trying to Reestablish something and that immediately Sparked something in my heart, That God was about to rock the very foundation and DNA of the church and was going to start something New but as well as spark up a fire within me that I've felt has been almost put out. Pastor Sam also mention that now that the Teen center has new carpet, New paint, New stage and well he also mention me, A new Youth director, That he was going to Reestablish His will for the Youth in the area with New Things. I am still completely not sure exactly what He has planned but I know its big and its coming quick. This morning we walked over every inch of the Youth Center and Prayed over every single thing God Has planned to do in it, And I felt as God spoke to my heart and said Wait until you see what I'm gonna do next. I feel as though He is about to really commission me for this Job and I already feel His outstretched hands tugging at my life saying who will I use? And like Isaiah 6:7 my heart is SCREAMING HERE I AM LORD SEND ME!

The Last Two.

Relationships. sigh... yes Relationships. We are surrounded by them, We invest in them, sometimes... we let them consumes us. But whats a good relationship? I think if we truly take the time to invest in someone like God invest in us then all our "ships" would be well pretty smooth sailing. But whats a God like relationship like you may ask? well when its no longer about you but about the other person. But just like my Pictures above, It does take two to make it work. Both partners have to be equally surrendered to the other. when we engrave this thought into our hearts,( How can I serve you? ) Things will change! Rapidly. Recently I had to make a tough choice to Continue pursing a girl that I believed I should be at the time in this constant war of Flesh and Spirit. My human aspect wanted to be with this other person in this flesh desire to have a partner in life but, In my spirit I felt as I wasn't created to have one as this passage resonated in my head 1 Corinthians 7:7 But I wish everyone were single, just as I am. Yet each person has a special gift from God, of one kind or another.  These are things I've been struggling with for years but God has finally made it clear that as of this point in my life He wishes for me to remain single for his purposes and plans to be fulfilled in my life. It will truly be a sacrifice to obey this command on my life but I know that His desires for my life are more than what I could ever hope for. As I finish these two rolls I've realized that the second roll isn't a wife but a Father for life.

In between.

I don't know exactly how,what, who,or where this Blog will go or what it will turn into but ive decided that expressing myself,my thoughts, my worries, and my journey is something that I've always enjoyed  doing. Expression is a big part of my innermost person, and its something I often suppresses, but my extroverted self is bursting at the seams and i think its had enough rest.